For the past two years, I’ve been posting stuffs about hatred and bitterness here on Tumblr. Things are going to change from now on. For over a year I became my own enemy. I was stuck in my situation that even my friends or family couldn’t do anything about it. I pushed people away. I was determined to recover alone. It was hard. Things were not working the way I wanted it to be. I set aside everything that was bothering me and focused on my work. I worked my ass of until I couldn’t think of anything anymore. I was so preoccupied with work, it made me forget things. Things that worry me. Things that made me sad. Things that drains me. Things that I shouldn’t be thinking of. Things that brought the worst in me. It was fun at first. But then again, too much of anything is not a good thing. I was focused on NOT being lonely, I forgot the true meaning of HAPPINESS. I thought when someone is not sad, then they are happy. I started focusing on things that will really make me happy. I went out with real friends who didn’t leave even though I was pushing them away during my dark days. I let go of friends who left when they witnessed how bitchy I can be on sticky situations. I started dating guys. Some are geniuses, some are techies, some are weirdos. I’m not ready to jump into another relationship. This time, I’ll take things slowly. Putting in mind that happiness can not only be seen or felt when in a relationship. Now, food makes me happy, babies make me happy, cute guys make me happy, coffee with friends makes me happy, music makes me happy. I find happiness in simple things that life has to offer me. Life is short to be dwelling on things that doesn’t make you feel good. Let’s all be happy and live larger than life! :)
